MIA

So obviously I'm not a hardcore blogger. Or maybe it's just I'm sick of reading my own words about how this time around I'm going to get on track and stay there, and then disappearing for weeks or months because I slid back into my bad habits yet again. So this is really a rant for one. Me.

It is well past time for me to take my health seriously. So to that end, I've switched from Flex to Core, and have for the past week been enjoying it thoroughly. I've also signed up for the CIBC Run for the Cure in October, and am currently on my second week of www.coolrunning.com 's Couch to 5K training program, done via podcasts. So far so good.

I feel better than I did a couple weeks ago.

And really, while I'm pissed that I've been neglected WW and so the number on the scale was moving up, the best part about getting back on track isn't that little flashing number each Monday morning.

It's finally saying to myself, I'm worth it. Time to get my ass in gear.

Accountability

Okay, signing back on here. Tired of not posting because I didn't want to post gains.

So I gained yesterday. Still floating around the mid 170s. Can't seem to break that 174 mark for love or money.

BUT I am hitting the gym regularly, I've been better about my food choices in general, I just need to make sure when I do make less intelligent choices, it's not a ton of salty stuff Sunday night! Great thing right before a WI. Ah well.

Anywho, to quote the movie Dick Tracy: "Back in business and ain't it grand, let the good times roll".

Holy crap!

So... WI day, after having a bad week food-wise, but an awesome week for working out. Drum roll please, I am down a whopping 3.2 pounds! I couldn't believe it this morning, I actually ran back into the bedroom and bounced onto the bed on all fours to crouch in front of my put-upon husband who was trying to sleep so I could tell him. :) He was properly impressed. ;)

Hit the gym today, earned myself 8 AP, and feeling pretty darn good. I've got my meals for tomorrow planned, other than dinner, but it'll probably be something very light, since I won't be home for dinner until after 8pm, because of a personal training session.

So exercise is on track. Food is on track. I just need a job that doesn't make me insane, and pays well, and life will be wonderful!

Feeling better

So it's true, working out can release those wonderful endorphins. I started this week in a horrible mood. Literally in tears. Monday evening was a haze of tension headache. Tuesday I worked out with my personal trainer, had a great session, found out something that I have in common with her. Wasn't a big deal, just a little info, but it just clicked into place, made so much sense, and made me laugh. And just cemented my opinion of her. She's awesome.

I worked out on Wednesday with a friend, mainly sticking to cardio, then Thursday was yoga, and Saturday went with my friend again. I had a major slide with WW this week, but caught myself, dragged myself kicking and screaming back on track, and feeling pretty good. I WILL track everything, and I will take what comes on my WI tomorrow. I've gone over my flex slightly, but I'm okay with that. Because I tracked it anyway.

Also, I got new glasses this week, and they look awesome. Always a boost. ;)

Definition

So, what's the difference between stress, anxiety, and depression? Degrees I suppose. Feeling like crap lately. Like I'm in a total rut. Which is accurate enough considering how I feel about my job. I want out, but can't manage to get an interview anywhere else. I feel trapped, resentful, and getting to be bitter. And yet there are aspects I do enjoy. But the be all and end all is turning into sales, which I despise. It's gotten to the point I'm not sleeping well at night, thinking about work.

I'm also in a rut with the weight loss. Not again, still. I can't count a week of following the plan as being back on track if I can't get it to go any farther. I feel stuck. Looking into the "Eat-Clean" tack, to go along with WW. Maybe if I could get hold of my personal trainer it'd help too, however that's not proving too easy either. :(

Alright, enough of the pity party, off to assemble my lunch for tomorrow.

Today's WI

Today I was up by 0.2, which isn't that bad all things considered. Easter dinner was at the 'rents place, and was wonderful as per the standard. :) Ate more than I should have, but yeehaw, Mom's also on WW, so most of the choices were healthy points-wise.

Was supposed to hit the gym tonight with D (sorry hon) but had to cancel on her again because of this damned cold. My nose is raw, my head is completely stuffed up (no comments, thanks!), and I basically feel like crap. To the point my boss offered to send me home. Oh sure, there was an hour left to the day, but it was nice she noticed how badly I was suffering.

I've called R to cancel my personal training session for tomorrow, and we'll see how I feel later in the week. Just at this point, I'm so congested I can't see myself doing well at all with the weights. Hard to breathe period, much less while doing lunges and squats.

Here's to lemon tea and brandy. Cheers.

WI

Woohoo! Despite TOI, drinking, food, and assorted wonderful badness, I had a loss this morning for my WI. Just 0.6, but after a weekend like that, I'll take it! :D